what I want is not to want what isn't mine

Today was amazing. The sun shone hotter and brighter than it may have all summer thus yet and I drove fast, blaring Collective Soul, frantically wishing I could turn back time and do the things I've longed to do.

But as it stands, the present is a pretty good place to be. Kate and I met to discuss design for rock, paper, scissors tonight and I think we've come up with a pretty amazing design. It's always affirming to be around people that know you in a different light than the rest of your friends because those people see qualities and parts of you that aren't always visible. We all need reminding of those things that don't come out as often as they should. And I think most writers will agree, it's always wonderful to be in the company of another wordsmith who doesn't expect you to be amazing with language, grammar or any of that. But to be in the company of one who truly understands the beauty in a moment, however fleeting it may be, and who understands that beauty is not lost simply because you can't express something the most eloquent way or even at all. It is a gift, it's unique and I hope that everyone has someone in their life that understands that...because we need it to survive and to be happy.

So another suggestion for you, friends. Grab a hold of those tiny moments that may seem like nothing - a glance, a conversation, a moment stilled only by silence when your heart is beating so loudly that you are sure that everyone can hear it. Take those moments as mementos of your life and guard them. Because in times when you are not quite sure that you can continue being the person you are, you can recall them and suddenly, things don't seem so bad.

On a side note - does anyone happen to know of a good recording of Smetana's Moldau? It's been on my mind lately and I feel like a good listen to a fantastic recording will ease that missing piece of my soul's current status. What do you suppose that means?

It's late and I'm running on pure adrenaline and sleeplessness, so I'd best close my eyes. Happy Wednesday, friends.

Quote o' the day:

"On the whole human beings want to be good, but not too good, and not quite all the time." - George Orwell